My Grandma who brought me up is in her death bed. May be its the question of few hours or days. Things are so uncertain. She means a lot to me and has been one who always wanted me to be happy. I am sure her soul/spirit will always be with us and bless us all the time.
In this time of sorrow i am great full to God that he has given me a very supportive Husband and in-laws. My Grandma is as good as my Mother if not more. So much so that i call her "Amma". She is been a wonderful person and has managed the family alone after my Grandpa. I could speak to her little and spend some time with her last month when Hubby and me went to see her. I have the satisfaction that we took her blessings when we visited her. Still i want to see her one last time before she leaves this world. How many hours or days are left is something only the almighty knows. May God give us the strength at this time of pain.
I am taking a couple of days off and Hubby and me leaving for Hyderabad tonight. Since i have to get back to work i may not be able to stay for all the ceremony. Though i am taking leave for a very important reason and i was feeling little delicate to ask for leave, probably because the leaves were taken regularly and reasons came up back to back. Still i know i have taken leave for all genuine reasons so far in this 4 months of work in the current company.
Grandma is in the ICU and the family was telling me that the sight of hers is very pathetic and painful to see. Yes when Amma is full of tubes, needles, and monitors its not a sight one would want to see.She lost her conscious on 15th morning itself. My aunt Gayatri who is like a sister to me was alone with Amma in the hospital. Amma is just on life support systems since then. In a way it is good that she does not have conscious , only because she is unconscious she is not feeling the pain of all these tubes which are poked into her. Its is been 4 days and there is no improvement. Doctors have given up hopes that she would revive. Family has also started accepting this fact. Most of her organs have stopped functioning. However old a person is, its is hard to accept the hard fact that someone who means so much to the family will not be with us anymore. I would not be able to talk to her in these last few hours when she is battling for life, still i would want to see her. I will tell her from my side that Mummy,Daddy and we all are there for Gayatri and my Mama.
The irony of life is when we are young, as a child we would not be aware of most of the things. As we grow we understand, we know lot of things, we know many hard facts and practical things. We all know life will end one day. Still as a child we get over things faster and as grown ups we take a lot of time to accept facts and get over it in spite knowing most of the things.
Looks like Amma was just waiting for me to get married and settled. She fell ill soon after 1 month of our marriage. She was getting bad slowly. She wanted to see my bro-Arvind who came on July 5th from US. As soon as she saw Arvind she became worse and was admitted in the Hospital on 6th July.
I can go on and on about my dear Amma. May be i will write more about her later again. For now I will only pray the Almighty that may he give Amma ( Grandma) peace in these last few hours and strength to the family to accept and bear this pain.
In this time of sorrow i am great full to God that he has given me a very supportive Husband and in-laws. My Grandma is as good as my Mother if not more. So much so that i call her "Amma". She is been a wonderful person and has managed the family alone after my Grandpa. I could speak to her little and spend some time with her last month when Hubby and me went to see her. I have the satisfaction that we took her blessings when we visited her. Still i want to see her one last time before she leaves this world. How many hours or days are left is something only the almighty knows. May God give us the strength at this time of pain.
I am taking a couple of days off and Hubby and me leaving for Hyderabad tonight. Since i have to get back to work i may not be able to stay for all the ceremony. Though i am taking leave for a very important reason and i was feeling little delicate to ask for leave, probably because the leaves were taken regularly and reasons came up back to back. Still i know i have taken leave for all genuine reasons so far in this 4 months of work in the current company.
Grandma is in the ICU and the family was telling me that the sight of hers is very pathetic and painful to see. Yes when Amma is full of tubes, needles, and monitors its not a sight one would want to see.She lost her conscious on 15th morning itself. My aunt Gayatri who is like a sister to me was alone with Amma in the hospital. Amma is just on life support systems since then. In a way it is good that she does not have conscious , only because she is unconscious she is not feeling the pain of all these tubes which are poked into her. Its is been 4 days and there is no improvement. Doctors have given up hopes that she would revive. Family has also started accepting this fact. Most of her organs have stopped functioning. However old a person is, its is hard to accept the hard fact that someone who means so much to the family will not be with us anymore. I would not be able to talk to her in these last few hours when she is battling for life, still i would want to see her. I will tell her from my side that Mummy,Daddy and we all are there for Gayatri and my Mama.
The irony of life is when we are young, as a child we would not be aware of most of the things. As we grow we understand, we know lot of things, we know many hard facts and practical things. We all know life will end one day. Still as a child we get over things faster and as grown ups we take a lot of time to accept facts and get over it in spite knowing most of the things.
Looks like Amma was just waiting for me to get married and settled. She fell ill soon after 1 month of our marriage. She was getting bad slowly. She wanted to see my bro-Arvind who came on July 5th from US. As soon as she saw Arvind she became worse and was admitted in the Hospital on 6th July.
I can go on and on about my dear Amma. May be i will write more about her later again. For now I will only pray the Almighty that may he give Amma ( Grandma) peace in these last few hours and strength to the family to accept and bear this pain.
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